-Jez Ashurst

Disappointed sial. 

Edit: Ok, I shall elaborate here. I can't take people asking left, right and center about it on MSN/facebook/text messages anymore. The more I talk about it, the more disappointed I feel. And the more disappointed I feel, the more suicidal I feel. And suicidal is NOT good.

Some of you know that I got 2 tickets for MAA from the Road Show at Cineleisure last weekend. Went all the way there. Had to try my best cause Click is performing. Wasn't really excited a few days back. But had been talking to a lot of Clickers since then(Melissa the latest, earlier this evening itself) and got myself really EXCITED and all hyped up. 

Created an event and sent the invitations out on facebook. Messaged Ben about the small show he hinted. Talked to Sylvia about the probable scrapbook. Wrote a little something for Ethan with the picture we took back in June. The Awards is 1 week away. 7 days. 

The point is, I'm half way there. Well, more than half way there like Sylvia said. And then, got a phone call from mum 2 hours ago, telling me about a talk dad has been organising. Yeah, he's giving a talk about further studies in Taiwan to the general public on the same day as MAA. So, I have to be back in my hometown.

It's my obligation as a daughter. They don't have to ask me to be home, I'll be there myself. Because I have to be there. My brother will be there. The whole family will. To help him out and show our support. I won't survive my own guilt if I go to MAA instead of being at my dad's talk too. I just hope I had been made known about this talk earlier, way earlier. At least so I don't have to feel so disappointed. (All the ridiculous hours sending ridiculously huge numbers of entries for ucrash and wasting my time ridiculously.)

Right. Am off to lick my wound. Again, things like this, is exactly why life sucks. But you gals just go enjoy yourself on my behalf! And Sylvia, there's no need to feel down. Don't be ridiculous! =p